Hard Choice

I hate to make hard choices, but does it make me a bad person???

Well reconsatly I'm going to school at Stevens-Henager College, but I decided to withdrawal for a couple of modules due to the gas prices raising. I feel guilty for withdrawaling from school, but I had to do what I felt was necassary for me to do. I just stress so much for not having enough money to put in gas and getting to pont A to point B:(. Sometimes I feel like I want to cry all the time cause I don't know what to do anymore. It feels like my head is banging against a wall, but nothing is coming to mind on what to do. I want to contuine to go to school, but for now I have to do what is best so I don't get myself sick from stressing so much.

But does that make me a bad person?? I don't know yet on the answer to the question. Part of my does feel like a bad person, because of all the finacal aid and money that got put toward the schooling. It's hard to explain to people for my reasoning ( and no it's not an excuse). It feels like there is  a fork in the road and that I am getting pulled in bother directions. I'm lost and confused at the same time and it doesn't help that my emontions are on thin thread. :( Some times I feel like I may have depression ( I'm not sure), but I wont let it get the better of me. I don't need no medications for it. All I need is my husbands support and love.

What a way to start a marraige? It's like a roller coaster up and down, and all the lup a loos. This time in my marraige can only make us strong together. I LOVE YOU CJ with all of my heart and soul and I am so grateful that I have found you. Your my love and live and my whole world. I don't know what I would do with out you in my life.