One of those days

Don't you hate having one of those days???

I sure the hell do makes me want to scream. Where you feel like everything is going wrong and nothing is going the way is should>:(. Well That is how my day has been for the whole day. Grrr!!!!! Seriously I have better days then this day. It so feels like my head is going to explode with frustration.

Well I didn't quite woke up on the wrong side of the bed nor did I wake up on the right side of the bed. I had ache all night. I have been sore and uncomfortable all night. My hips, back, shoulders and everything else seems like it was aching. Well of course I woke up hurting and I wasn't happy about it, especially when I have a little cute stinker named Diego laying right next to me and wont let me have any room for myself. But I love him. Okay that was fine and honky dory, so I get in the shower and some how some where the water changes temperature GRR. Seriously is it pick on me day.

Well last night I needed a pair of new shoes cause the only shoes I have are the generic of the shapes up, I love those shoes don't get me wrong they are great then only problem I have with them is when the weather outside is cold it allows the cold air to go through the shoes and then my feet are cold. So I go to Wal mart and buy me a pair of new shoes. Okay if I was a normal women it would be nice. Unfortunately I'm not woman shoes KILLS my feet. You see I have not arch meaning I'm flat footed. Of course woman shoes has the arch SO it hurts my feet. So for me to be comfortable I have to wear men shoes. Another downer is that men shoes cost to dang much.

Needless to say I found one in mens that fits comfortable and I like me the downer they cost me 25 dollars :O I know right? EXPENSIVE. Is all I can say, but oh man oh man they are so comfortable. Something so good couldn't last long for me at least. I got with my aunt to get her hair cut and then to lunch and come back home. You see no one home and having dogs in the house with one in the process of potty training there are going to be accidents. So anyways trying to get through the front door and fighting the dogs I some how found an accident and step in it with my NEW SHOES>:( GRRRRRRR. Oh was I pissed. Of all the things to with my new shoes. I even snapped at my husband and he didn't do anything. I'm SORRY please FORGIVE me;(.

After getting my shoes clean we then had to go do laundry. Can I not get a break:( what a long sore day that made in store for me. But I like having clean clothes. Sorry to anyone that reads it, but it just one of those days were you just need to get things off your chest. Especially my chest. I hope and pray that tomorrow makes for a better day for me cause I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow so I hope.

Movie Date

We went on a movie date tonight:D

We went and seen Red Riding Hood. All I can say is I loved it, it was great and amazing. My husband thought it would be nice to get out of the house and do something just the two of us. It was the best decision we ever made. It was great to get out and have us time. We don't do it much with having no money, but it is a nice reward when you do.

The movie was great and it's has spots that makes you jump. Okay movies that can make me jumps is a good movie. We choose to go to Red Riding Hood because all of the movies there look either stupid or waste of time and money to see it. So we went to it instead, it was the bomb. The fact that the producer leaves you hang til the end on who is the werewolf is great. ( I wont tell who it is, but you'll at least suspected):D I wouldn't mind seeing it again and can't wait til it comes out on dvd so I can see if we can buy it. I love horror movies and I'm now glad that we went and seen it.

I think out of all my birthdays I think this year has then all beat. I guess having someone you truly love makes a different. He has made this birthday really special for me this year. I can't believe that I'm married to the most wonderful person in the world. No one else can be him, I'm so glad I waited til I had found him. He is my Mr. Right, I don't regret anything with him. People saying I should of waited longer on getting married to him when I did. It's my life and I love it they way it is.

He is a wonderful person and he doesn't force me to get a job if I don't want one. In a way he is old fashion, meaning the man work and supports the family while the woman is home taking care of the house and kids. But with different he helps me with the house as much as I do with the house and when we have kids he will help just as much. He has already warned me that I may have to fight him to take care of my kids LOL!!! :D I love him with all of my heart and I'm thankful for having him in my life.

I love you Cj and can't wait to spent the rest of my life with you for eternity and forever! :D

My Birthday

Well March 25 was my 22nd birthday.

I usually don't celebrate my birthday, but this year I did with my hubby. It was great besides the surprise he had in store for me. I wasn't expecting much I knew I was getting a few things but not a lot. The good surprise I got which wasn't anything to do with my birthday, but we received our federal check on my birthday. It was nice to get our federal on my birthday, but unfortunately it was snowing on my birthday "Thanks Mother Nature." At least I can say it was a good day besides the bank that was frustrating. GRR!! Went to deposit the federal and have some cash out, but according them I have to have money in my account to cover the cash part.  So instead of asking for a thousand in cash I ask if I could get at least 200 in cash. Again they said they couldn't do it cause I don't have enough to cover it, but they could let me get a 100. What I don't understand they cashed my state which was 424 without a problem and they knew how much was in my account. Frustrating.

Plus it was my dog Diego's vet appointment as well. Before the appointment he took me to lunch at Tucanos :D oh how I love there food. It was good beside Cj telling them it was my birthday. They didn't just say happy birthday but they had me stand up and dance with other people that were there celebrating birthdays that day. He was a brat but it was fun. Then we went to the vet appointment, it was okay besides feeling so bad for my dog :( poor little guy.

Then as apart of my birthday he took  me to bingo. I had a blast and I even won and got a few things :D It was good and was nice to celebrate my birthday with some one I love so much with all of my heart. But he does make me feel a little bad cause his birthday is in September and I didn't do as much as he did with me. I have this year to do something special for him.

The little brat that he is had something up his sleeves, but he wont tell me anything. So I wanted to get my nails done and so I did my nails on Saturday. Well while I was getting my nails done he was corresponding with is mother. I was done around about 630ish and so we decided to go look at deer behind Geneva, I know we were supposed to be at his mom's at 7 to discuss about the Family Reunion in Arizona. Well I was in for a big surprise, I walked in to his parents house and there was a surprise birthday party there. They didn't have to do anything for me, but they did anyways. It was nice of the them to do it. It was fun we have cake and ice cream and every one that could come came. His sister Shawntell and her daughter Faith, Nikki and her family, and Chris and Virginia, Mikey, and Grandma Hubbs.

I really enjoyed my birthday this year it was great and I don't think anything can be this birthday. I'm also excited cause tonight my mom is taking me to Texas Road House for my birthday. It going to be me, Cj, my mom, my brother, my aunt and uncle, and my cousin. It's going to be great and fun.

 This is my birthday ring that Cj got me. We got it at Morgan Jewelers. The stone is my birth stone for March and the stone is real. I love it with all of my heat.  Also I got my nail done, maybe hard to see be the color is a light blue .


 This was the big surprise that he had and wont tell me. He gotten me horse shoe ear rings and this card. I love it for the fact that they are what they are. I love horses and my long time dream is to be able to own my horses one day. :D

But the greatest gift I could of receive was him and I gotten 10 moths earlier. That's right my husband I love him with all of my heart. I LOVE YOU!!!!! :D

What a wonderful Day

It has been the most wonderful day that I have ever had:D

Well for not having much sleep today, it has been great. I didn't go to bed til 4 in the morning, but what a surprise I got. I awoken to my mom saying "Can you smell the money?" I'm like okay what the heck she is talking about. So I roll over and asked her what she was talking about, and then she handed me a letter. I'm like okay what is this letter about, let me guess another bill collector wanting money as usual. OH!!! Was I so wrong :D it was our state taxes. :D let me tell you what I was jumping for joy, now I'm just waiting for our federal to come so we can set aside the money for our anniversary and our trip to Arizona.

Well we go cashed the check and I get this nice surprised my husband say he was going to the phone store to get me a new phone. I'm like What seriously:D and he was like yeah. OH!! I was happy >_< cause I wanted a new phone. He also decided he wanted to get a new phone as well but the phone he wanted wasn't in so he has to wait til they get the phone in. Then after going to the phone store we then stopped at Hobby Lobby Well let me say I LOVE THAT STORE. He got me a lock latch rug that is a Noah Ark. OH!!! I love my husband with all of my heart and soul. I can't wait til I get sealed in the temple with  him. I am so bless to have him in my life.

I'm getting more excited  each and every day when it gets closer to our anniversary. I can't wait to go to Jackson Hole, Wy. We are also thinking about getting a camera so we can  take a lot of pictures of our adventures on our first anniversary and so we can record everything that happens to us in our life together as a family. I can't wait to start a family with my husband I know down in my heart that he will make a good father, but right now I'm content with just being use but if the lord wants to have a kid sooner than so be it.

He makes me so happy and I know I couldn't ask for more than that and I wont find another person that can make me so happy as he does each and every day that we are together. He is my one and only love and can't wait to spend the rest of my live with him for eternity:D

On another note I have less then 2 day's til my birthday. I'm getting excited more and more, but frustrate more and more cause he has secret and he wont tell me>:/ but I love him.

Men you can't live with them and you can't live with you them

I always been asking myself this question for years? Why is that? Also another good question I been asking myself, why are men big babies?

Well this month seems to be the theme of the men are big babies. Cj my husband well you see he has had bad luck this month. A couple of weeks ago he woke up with a kink neck and it was very painful for him to turn his head to look left or right. Me trying to be a good wife, I tried to help him work the kink out and asked if he wanted me to massage his neck. Let me tell you what he fought me like a kid fights to get what they want. When you help men its like pulling teeth out?>_< Finally after bickering over it he finally let me help him. I love it when I prove him right, I put some mineral ice on his neck and massaged it in and started to work out it. He then began to relax and start to feel better. Well the next day he was able to move it more then he was the day before. He finally got his neck to pop and massage the last of the knot and he was better. See I told you so :D.

Yeah, well let me tell you what that didn't last long:/. Yesterday he woke up with his left foot swollen and it hurt him to walk, I again asked what I can do to help and guess what his answer was. If you guessed then your right, he said he didn't need my help. Well later as the day goes on we had errands to run, I know the pain was getting worst because he was pulling faces. So again I asked him what he wanted me to do to help, AND AGAIN he said we didn't need my help and that he was fine. So we finally get home and get dinner ready he sat on the couch and was moaning because of the pain. He still didn't want any help so I let it be. Well around 12 am in the morning I was sitting next to him and his leg was bouncing because of the pain and he was almost in tears. I finally turned to him and told him that he either need to go to the hospital or take something for the pain. So to avoid going to the hospital he to something for the pain, but unfortunately the pain killers didn't work. So around 1 I asked him if he wanted to go to the hospital, he finally agreed to go.

So while we were waiting to go to the hospital we both were nerves to go, you see the last time he went to the hospital for what was the same thing they gave him a demerol shot and it ended up killing him  because he was allergic to it.  So I was a nerves reck but I know we had to go to get him to get better. So  I said a silent pray that everything will be okay. So we took him in and while we waited we discussed how we are going to pay, because we are both unemployed and couldn't afford to pay the hospital bill. So when the doctor came in he check Cj's foot and sure enough it was the same thing that he had when he found out that he was allergic to demerol. It was cellulitis which is infection in between the muscle and skin. So the doctor prescribe antibiotics, the nurse came in and started to take some information from us and asked us if we have insurance, which we don't. She was kind enough to tell us what we can to so we can pay the hospital. She gave us a contact card to their finical aid and set up a payment plan.


We both came out happy. For one he didn't die for a allergic reaction, Second they were willing to help us out, and Three when they found out he had allergy to medication they put bright orange bracelet on his wrist to alert everyone that he has an allergy. So we came home and he took pain killer and went to bed. We got up today and call the pharmacy at Walgreens to see how much it would cost to get the prescription filled (Which was another stress) and WOW is all I got to say it only cost us to 12 to get the prescription filled.

Well I know can say I feel a lot better knowing now the he has the medication that will help him get better :D. I hate to see him in so much pain.  But seriously it was like pulling teeth to get him to do something that need to be done. Is it because he is a man and men doesn't need help?? Or is it the pride?? Well what ever it is he now knows that he can't win even if he tries hard enough.

On a plus side I have 5 more days til my birthday:D. And see know that he listened to me means when my birthday comes he wont be in so much pain.  I can't wait til my birthday.

OH I also forgot to say I LOVE YOU CJ even though you can be a pain, but I love you.XD.

Busy Summer

Well I go a busy summer ahead of me this year.

Well our first anniversary is coming up fast >_< like in two months. Well we decided that we wanted to go out of state for our anniversary, so the decision is that we are going to Jackson Hole, WY and while we are up there were are going to visit Yellowstone :). I'm so excited cause I have never been to Yellowstone before and neither has Cj. I haven't been to Wyoming before the only states I have ever been to is: Idaho, Nevada and that is about it in less you count driving through Arizona??? But I'm so stocked and thank god for taxes, because with out taxes this probable wont happen.

Then in June we are going to Arizona for a family Reunion on his parents side. We decided to go so that his other family that I haven't meant before get the chance to meet me. How do I rate on going out of state twice within in a month apart :). It's going to be so nice to get out of the state of Utah even if it's just the weekend, But who cares as long as I'm having fun. I'm looking forward to these trips that I want it NOW and not wait til it's time.

We discussed about staying within Utah for our anniversary and we were looking into going to Zion National Park, but now that we are getting taxes back it helped us were we could go out of State like we regularly planned. I am so surprised how much we are getting back in taxes. It is so nice so we can afford to do things. We are going to get his Jeep up and running and put some money aside for the Arizona trip and our anniversary, and then pay bills. He has plans of getting me something special for me   for my birthday I don't know what cause he wont tell me /:| But all well I will find out sooner or later.

Well until next time, this concludes this blog. I'll try and blog about my birthday and the little surprise.

Hard Choice

I hate to make hard choices, but does it make me a bad person???

Well reconsatly I'm going to school at Stevens-Henager College, but I decided to withdrawal for a couple of modules due to the gas prices raising. I feel guilty for withdrawaling from school, but I had to do what I felt was necassary for me to do. I just stress so much for not having enough money to put in gas and getting to pont A to point B:(. Sometimes I feel like I want to cry all the time cause I don't know what to do anymore. It feels like my head is banging against a wall, but nothing is coming to mind on what to do. I want to contuine to go to school, but for now I have to do what is best so I don't get myself sick from stressing so much.

But does that make me a bad person?? I don't know yet on the answer to the question. Part of my does feel like a bad person, because of all the finacal aid and money that got put toward the schooling. It's hard to explain to people for my reasoning ( and no it's not an excuse). It feels like there is  a fork in the road and that I am getting pulled in bother directions. I'm lost and confused at the same time and it doesn't help that my emontions are on thin thread. :( Some times I feel like I may have depression ( I'm not sure), but I wont let it get the better of me. I don't need no medications for it. All I need is my husbands support and love.

What a way to start a marraige? It's like a roller coaster up and down, and all the lup a loos. This time in my marraige can only make us strong together. I LOVE YOU CJ with all of my heart and soul and I am so grateful that I have found you. Your my love and live and my whole world. I don't know what I would do with out you in my life.